A simpleton

I was born in an ordinary family, brought up with traditional values and lead a simple life which I thought was sufficient and purposeful. I go to school like any other kid and I had my ups and downs, trials and errors with the things i come accross. Once in a while, you'll get a lesson in life and if the mistake is not too great, you get a slap on the wrist then you move on and become a better person. But sometimes mistakes could come in grand sizes that smack you down so hard that breathing becomes a task, let alone standing up again.

For those who know me knows that I treasure my friends. My slogan being 'friends are for life, friends are forever'. My ex's tell me that I treat my friends better than I treat them. My family tells me that I spend more time with my friends than my family. To all the above, I'm guilty as charged because like my slogan, I live it to the max. So people I call friends are dear to me and I carry them close to my heart. Those who appreciates return the same amount of love and affection. When this relationship becomes a mutual understanding, my heart is given away.

Here's a song that's been sent by a friend. It speaks what I feel inside... (lousy mtv though)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nH1x4JfMUzE

Now that the sweet part is over, let me bring up my bitter tone. When the heart is given out, there's never any vigilance or protection against what your friend might do to you. In my case, I completely let my guard down (as I always do). I'm not saying I never get fangs in my back, but this was a blunt and rusted dagger driven right into my heart, right in front of my eyes. It's like handing your precious heart to a friend but the heart is being thrown out in the highway so HGVs could ram it over and over again until you can't even see the little pieces anymore. Blood's been sucked dry and the skin cell's been melted. *sigh* This time, I've really been hurt. I'm not gonna lie to you. It's bad.

The title speaks volumes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZm3Sg_6ezU

Many asked what happened? Many wondered why? Some probe and assume, some laugh at how I can be this serious about 'friends'... Many assumptions and pre-conceptions. I'm not even gonna entertain those judgements. May be one day when the wound doesnt hurt this bad, may be then I could try to re-tell this story. At the moment? I need encouragement. I need all the help and support in the world. I need the world to show me the kindness and tenderness that a hurt soul desires. I want to stop this crying, I want to stop this hurting.

Lord, I crumble on your feet and pray that you'll give me strength to carry on. Show me comfort in your Kingdom and set me free from this pain. Take me into Your arms and cradle my sorrows away. In Your Almighty Name I pray...